Sunday, June 27, 2004
choir concert today. ended.
thank goodness...no more choir anymore. my wednesdays and sat afternoons are going to be free from now on. no more dumb practices.
the concert today sucks. the audience was the worst audience i have ever seen. they cheer at the wrong time and even call their friend's names when they were on stage. Intially a group of friends starting calling one of their friend's names, then the rest followed and soon everyone was doing almost the same thing. Imagine the noise that they produced...when it was supposed to be a concert in the first place. these people, i bet more than half of the people don't even know or understand or appreciate music...and come here to make a fool out of themselves by cheering at the wrong times. i couldn't be bothered anyway...what a low-class audience.
the choir's singing was horrible. an understatement. i was relieved when the concert finally came to an end. the high notes were so out-of-pitch and the voices were not balanced at all. it doesn't take an expert to tell. blame it that more than half of the people don''t even know how to read musical notes and basic musical stuff. these are the basic stuff you need to know before you even sing in a choir. i would rate today's concert as a disaster. and all i got was...one stalk of flower from our dear principal. not even a thank you for helping to polish the piano, which was hard work.
anyway, i don't care. it's all over. a shit concert that is. my life's going be back to where it was before i joined YJC choir.
its a much better life i prefer...
lee needed you at 27.6.04
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Wednesday, June 23, 2004
choir concert this sat, which three days away. the concert is so going to screw up man and i don't give a damn about it, i mean all i am looking forward about the concert is that i can finally offically step down from YJC choir. that's really something good to look forward to, esp. when you are forced to join it in the first place. they call this, the responsibility of a music student. what shit man, supposed to help you improve your music or something like that. Anyway i don't give a damn about choir. and i really don't give a damn. i have sacrifice so much for it and will be extremely glad when i can finally step down.
we had full-dress rehearsal today. it was supposed to be from 9 in the morning to 2 in the afternoon. but that conductor just would not let us go and make us stay back till 4 in the afternoon. i came home and slept till about 7, as i only had like 3 hours sleep the night before. and what's more, there's choir the next few days like for 3-4 hours, knowing that the practice will probably drag on and on. i am so tired.
wore the choir uniform for the first time today and i look so terrible in it. its the truth, i look terrible in almost everything i wear. its some thin, transparent-looking blouse and a long batik skirt. the whole effect was horrible. that least the guys look quite okie with their suit, actually more presentable. and from the looks of the full-dress rehearsal today, the concert's going to screw up and as i have said, i don't give a shit whatsoever. the teachers were so inexperienced and they forced people to sell tickets pricing at $6 each? what is the world coming to now man?
miss yap says that the choir is now at the peak, meaning that everyone is excited and waiting forward to this sat. but is it true? some people just practically force themselves to put on a fake smile on their face, knowing their time is better spent. but well, at least i can get more CCA points... And to think i even offered to help polish the grand piano in the auditorium tomorrow. gosh...should i? like waste my good polish solution for a piano that is practically out-of-tune and half spolit? and that means i would have to go early tomorrow.
i think i have bitch enough of choir. shall not waste time talking about it. And holidays are coming to an end...oh no...haven't finished my homework, esp my maths tutorials.
lee needed you at 23.6.04
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Saturday, June 19, 2004
Just got back from Malaysia, and i guess i had a fun time there. shall update more when i have the energry to, right now i am just so dead tired that i can fall asleep now and wake up tomorrow.
replies to my taggers:
to stingray: i'm back! and i just knew you would miss me *laughs. when we celebrating her bdae? not at cafe cartel again i hope...
to des: thanks. and yes, i am safely home.
to ghgh: yes to your first question and thanks too.
to smile: yeah..he plays the piano and the violin.
lee needed you at 19.6.04
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Sunday, June 13, 2004
I am going off to Austin Hills Golf Resort tomorrow for a church camp for a week. The best part is, instead of feeling excited or happy about the thought of going off, what i am feeling is completely opposite.
I know i am so going to miss him, yet i still don't have the guts to say i will miss you to him. I really don't know, the trip lies ahead of me, i have no choice but to go and i am sure to have a fun time there. But five days is sure a long time. i guess he felt it too, i could sense it, although he didn't tell me directly. Guys are shy, well some guys are shy and he's one of them. And i know i have already said this, but i am so going to miss him.
i can't wait to get back to singapore, so that i can talk to him and see him once again. five days is too long. the fun i am going to have there will never replace my longing to see and hear him again. well, i know five days isn't even a week, but its long enough to miss someone.
i bet tomorrow on the way to malaysia, i won't be missing singapore, but him. he's playing a duet at victoria concert hall tomorrow, but i can't see him play. *sobs. all i can only do is say all the good luck and best wishes.
a friend say i am crazy over him, am i? all i know is,i have never been this crazy over a guy before, never have i miss a guy so much. all our chats on the phone and our small little meetings, i am going to miss all this.
never mind...five days and i will be back.
lee needed you at 13.6.04
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Wednesday, June 09, 2004
i guess i am just too paranoid. he's sick now....that's why. so much for all my wild guesses....
lee needed you at 9.6.04
This is madness. its the first time i am actually out of my mind...because a guy.
i called him at least 5 times yesterday....he didn't reply to any of my calls. never called me back. then this morning i called him again...he didn't pick up his handphone. is he avoiding or ignoring me? i wonder...i can't help thinking...maybe he's trying to avoid me after all.
so out of sheer boredness...i have compiled a list of why he hasn't called me back since yesterday night...
1. he lost his handphone
2. his handphone has no battery
3. he cannot use his house phone to call me back
4. he's busy
5. he has other urgent stuff to do
6. his parents don't allow him to talk on the phone
7. he dislikes me
8. he hates me
9. he can't stand me
10.he can't stand the sight of me
11.he has other girls
12.he's too busy with schoolwork or his piano or his violin
13.he's out with his friends having a great time
14.he's avoiding me on purpose
15. he thinks i am just one lousy stupid girl
of all these reasons above...i think no. 15 fits the best. i am just one lousy girl that he's trying to avoid. i really don't know...and i really hope not.
why aren't you calling me back? is it so hard...or that you just don't want to?
lee needed you at 9.6.04
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