Saturday, October 23, 2004
this thing has been stagnant for so long. but don't worry, here i am again.
anyway, happy birthday theresa. hope you had a smashing birthday party. and don't worry, the present will come to you in no time.
i haven't got much to update, simply because i can't put down in words the many things that happen during the past few days. it sure has been the busiest week so far, and i hate everything so far. i do hope everything's ending soon. yes. the 23rd of november and after which i can get my seven months of holidays(while the poor guys have to head down to the army.
ok. i don't know what am I doing like for the past few days. while everyone is supposedly studying, i am still here sleeping ten hours a day, living off eating chocalates and bumming around. scold me if you may, i need a wake-up call to reality. the As start in six days time and i haven't been doing much. so far all my plans have failed. but i am going to do something tonight.
i just realised that econs wasn't that bad at all. just my silly thinking. hopefully its not too late.
lee needed you at 23.10.04
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Saturday, October 16, 2004
graduated.
i don't think talking about the graduation ceremony helps. its horrible. and its boring. seeing people going up stage receiving prizes, and mostly every minute people are cherring and jeering instead of clapping like a normal ceremony. as i sat there, i almost felt as if i was attending a pop concert by some pop singer instead. oh please, of goodness sake, can't there be at least a cilivised graduation cerenomy. and when one teacher came up to give a speech, some were even cheering at high pitched voice. i tried to block my ears from the sounds. its irritating. its not like he some famous actor or singer in a MTV awards ceremony. its a teacher trying to make a speech. wat's all that for? the ugly side of yjc.
after the whole thing ended for which i was most grateful for. the atmosphere outside was full of excitment, shouting and laughter. many were hanging around, taking photos and some were even having the time of their lives that even a scene was created when people were pushed into the dirty pond. i was wondering. am i living in the right time. A levels is liek two weeks away and people look as if it has ended. and what's the whole point of pushing people into the pond.
the whole thing was terrible. trust the school to come up with something like this.
lee needed you at 16.10.04
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Monday, October 11, 2004
this friday will be my graduation day, which means that my life in yjc is finally over. two years, and as i back on it, it wasn't that bad as what i thought initially. anyway i will save all this thoughts for friday perhaps. just hope that the principal will not spoilt the whole day by making us sit through lessons for the whole morning though.
anyway, i was supposed to have a maths mock exam in the afternoon but the whole group of music students were down for this talk by some australian university. btw, its the universary of western australia. my thoughts on universarties in australia is that they are just trying to make money out from you because they think that singaporeans are very well-off. well, after today's talk, my impression still hasn't changed. when one of my friends asked for the criteria for the audition, the guy just said, any two contrasting pieces. i almost fainted. its such a far cry even from the Yong Siew Toh conversatory of music.
i going to have a surprise for my friends this friday. just wait and see....
thanks for those who left comforting words or words of encouragement on my tagboard. Don't worry, it doesn't go away unappreciated.
lee needed you at 11.10.04
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Thursday, October 07, 2004
i didn't know that so many things were happening around me. probably i am just locked up in this small corner of mine, and not paying attentiion to naything happening around me. its a really personal thing and i have swore to keep it a secret. but i couldn't believe that such things are happening, and yet i didnt even guess or noticed. i probably have to keep my eyes open to the world out there. its a nice sharing though. and i just want to say: stay strong.
argh. pms is killing me. during music lesson, i shouted at eugene over a lost photocopying card. ok. i realise its my fault but i don't deserve to me shouted back with vulgarities either.
lee needed you at 7.10.04
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Monday, October 04, 2004
AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave
and fearless.
Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to
console others. Too generous
and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty
for praises.
Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when
provoked. Easily jealous.
Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly.
Independent thoughts. Loves
to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in
the arts, music and
defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance
against illnesses. Learns
to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and
caring. Loves to make
friends .
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lee needed you at 4.10.04
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Sunday, October 03, 2004
i finally finished my music portfolio after one night of hard work and three cups of coffee. at least now its completed and all that i got to do is hand in my commentaries for the teacher to edit. i guess i finally learnt my lesson after so long that last minute work will not always work. so luckily i managed to cramp eveything into two nights. quite last minute too actually but since it is me, this is already considered very early. i was trying to complete it, and so i missed the steamboat dinner with my friends. oops sorry. another day i promised.
haven't been blogging much. ooops. my plan to blog everyday has failed. anyway on friday, which is supposedly children's day, my school had a half day. i thought it was much wiser and better to just declare a day off. and the reason why we had a half day on friday was because our school won the top for value-added award. like who gives a damn. and it wasn't really a half day actually. formal lessons ended at 11 something, so its not really a half-day though.
today before church service started, i had a short talk with eugene. and i was real touched by his encouragement. he's just one guy that i knew since small but havent really got the chance to know him even better. but i was real touched that though we don't really know each other and don't talk much to each other also, he actually cared about how i was doing. and since, i am actually struggling, he encouraged me a lot as he been through all this shit. really encouraged although it was just a short talk with him. and i really do have to thank God for such peeple, good christian friends who always without fail encourage me. i do hope i have been much of an encouragement to them too.
never give up.
never give up.
it strucked me, what he said. but this stayed in my mind all the way in church. i was thinking about it during the service too. i don't know why too. maybe because i have already given up on myself.
but i guess i am not going to sink myself into self-pity. i hate it when people ask me, so how did you do for prelims? and i would just say, horribly. and not say another word about it. it happened during the sharing on saturday. afterwards, people just come up to me and ask me how did i do. and again, i don't know how to answer them but just replied and said i did very badly. they asked how bad, and again i do not have an answer.
i'll do what i hope will change everything in a month or so. first thing i'm going to do, call up auntie janet for help on econs. she offered her help to me last year but i couldn't really be bothered about econs last year and she gave me lots of essays to do and so i was scared and didn't go back to her anymore. actually, i didn;t do her essays. that's the real reason why. and i don't want to face my own failure.
never give up. how applicable.
lee needed you at 3.10.04
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