Monday, April 25, 2005
monday blues. shucks i think i have them. i woke up really in a bad mood. irritated by everything and have no mood whatever to do anything. read the newspapers and went back to sleep again. if i didn't have got to teach piano today, i would have slept my afternoon away.
haha. since i was giving away my cupboard to some neighbours, i had to get right away packing it and oh mine. it wasn't easy at all considering that i haven't packed my cupboard since i don't know when. wait correction. i simply dump everything in my cupboard. i found a lot of stuff, perhaps you guys would not want to know. whatever but anyway i found my primary school diary. lolx. my primary school diary, when people would have thrown it long ago.
on the front page was my wishlist. haha. and when i was in primary school, my wishlist didn't contain of things i want to buy. instead schools which i wish to go. let me see.
secondary school: rgs
junior college: rjc
university: oxford uni
ambition: to be a doctor.
boy was i cute. are all primary school kids the same as what i was. maybe i was special. *laughs. (and i didn't know i wanted to be a doctor! goodness.)
anyway, oh no. i'm stuck. music just seem too...final.
lee needed you at 25.4.05
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Friday, April 22, 2005
mans. i'm so happy now. yay. and just to update. i got into the nanyang academy of fine arts to major in piano performance. and guess what too. they took like less than 1 week to reply me, instead of the excepted 3 weeks. yay.
well. i'm just so glad that i really don't know what to say now.
shall update more tomorrow or so.
lee needed you at 22.4.05
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005
my house is in a major chaos. they call this: renovation. seriously think about it, all i want to do is to re-paint the walls and have a built in cupboard in my room. and YET, i have to pack everything in boxws, shift everything out and around, create an empty room. goodness knows where i'm going to sleep later tonight.
and really, the paint stinks big time. the workers smoke like no one's business. and i mean like no one's business. the rule as long as i'm around, please for heaven's sake smoke outside and close that freaking door too. still dare to ask my mum for a drink mans. if it was me, no drink for any of them.
i can't wait for my room and house to be back in order.
and besides, i'm thinking really hard...haha whether to cut my hair. yes, just over this small little stuff. i like a certain kind of hairstyle, but don't dare to try because i'm scared it will screw up. haha. ok. i'll think of it again. anyway,the last time i cut my hair was around 2 months ago. and yes, it was a bad haircut. haircuts never ever turn out good for me.
lee needed you at 20.4.05
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Monday, April 18, 2005
i scolded one of my piano kids today. reason? he couldn't play his exam pieces decently after million weeks. i was in a bad mood. and he was eating into my pathetic half an hour dinner timeslot.
best thing was, his mother seem to be so pleased that i scolded her son.
i really scolded him. he cried. imagine that. i send him out of my music studio with some tissue and told him never to come back again.
after that i called the mum on her handphone to apologise for scolding him so harshly. after a few minutes, he came on the phone. he said: thanks teacher for scolding me today. i will work harder.
my heart melted.
lee needed you at 18.4.05
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Friday, April 15, 2005
the audition. its over.
halfway through my first song, the auditioners went: ok, that's enough. let's hear the second song. good or bad? i don't know. don't ask me. it may either mean they are impressed with my playing or just plainly disguisted. anyway, i kind of don't like the auditioners. they were kind of impatient and whinny. hah. so much for my whinnings.
and i didn't really like the piano. the piano in practice room was ok. but the piano in the audition room was so harsh. never did like yamaha grand pianos. well, it was kind of enjoyable, except that i don't understand why can't they just let me play my song finish (i practiced so hard on the last part! arghh).
the next 3 weeks are probably going to be a torture. let me check my letter box everyday from tomorrow onwards for either a rejection/acceptance letter. this is so much worse.
lee needed you at 15.4.05
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Friday, April 08, 2005
damn. when everyone else at least know where they are heading, well at least in their mind, i'm still stuck in the middle of nowhere. and truth be told, i'm not doing much except dreaming, wishing and hoping. and hoping somemore.
this is NOT good.
lee needed you at 8.4.05
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Sunday, April 03, 2005
i haven't been updating much. i'm sorry. i'm just caught up with many other things.
well, i've been reading this book. eh, it's a romance book if you so happen to guess correctly. the story's a bit trashy, and what's nots, but i still think its jolly well good book because of the characters in it. wait, i'm not going to go into all the details of the book. i won't bore you to death. but the thong is that one part of the story strucked me. well, it just says that some people came into your life with a purpose, we may not know, but all these people who came into our life are here to help us grow and shape our character.
wait, before you think its stupid. i've been thinking, quite a few people came into my life, like suddenly. some stayed, some left. well, and recently there was another person who suddenly came into my life. and we sort of started a conversation via sms.
and the best thing is, he was my biggest crush during the secondary days. haha. now you'll probably know what is wrong with me talking all this rubbish.
anyway, STOP asking about my plans. because i can't choose anymore.
and
i'm
running
out of every option.
lee needed you at 3.4.05
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