Sunday, May 29, 2005
oh wow. it hasn't rained like this for like so long. nice weather. cool but yet not so cold.
anyway, i'm not in any particular way looking forward to church camp this year. i don't know why. maybe its just the place and then maybe because of the timing of it all. i have got to teach every single day to make up for everything. and i so wonder so i'm going to survive the coming week before i take off and cast everything aside. which actually means a break from everything. about time i think about that too.
the feeling which i'm so weary to put aside as been coming back.
i'm not going to say it here because no one will understand.
and this is probably the last place i would ever write it anyways.
lee needed you at 29.5.05
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Tuesday, May 24, 2005
just the other day i told my mum that its surprising how i havent been sick since the big As are over. and so i conclude that it was all the stress and shit that caused me to be sick. and then the very next day, i was down with a sore throat, then headache, flu. and then on sunday, i had a high fever. and so i missed church and singing in the choir. and so now thinking back, maybe that sentence had a bit of magic in it. maybe next time i shouldn't say such things again.
oh wells. i'm better now. but not that well yet to teach for 5 hours straight. i'm up and jumping around. but i tend to eat much much less than before. really less. good or bad i don't know. good for my weight, bad for my body. haha whatever.
anyway, i think the starwars fever is on. stores are selling more and more starwars toys. some are so silly. they sell it at a few hundreds bucks. like who will buy man. haha definitely not me. but if they sell yoda, i will buy man. he's so freaking cute. small and cute. but i mean only if its not so expensive, if not that's madness.
and my mum's crazy. she keeps going on about me getting married, what should my future boyfriend/husband should be like, how should i treat my in-laws etc. omg. its freaking me out and really quite irritaing sometimes. and on one seem to understand that i don't want to get married in the next 10 years the least.
talk about old-fashioned. boo. irritating.
lee needed you at 24.5.05
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Monday, May 23, 2005
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. |
Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. |
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
lee needed you at 23.5.05
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Saturday, May 21, 2005
i'm really sick now. and the feeling really sucks. i hope to get better or recover by tomorrow. i just hate being sick.
i had a fruitful time at piano lesson today. i guess its because i was complimented. well not so. talented, nice musical charcacter, touch and phrasing on chopin. haha but my laziness didn't escape me because some of my rhythm was wrong and when my teacher corrected me, i got it fully correct on the first try and he went: if only you spend more time on such things, then you probably could play really well. anyway the thing is that i'm teachnically lousy. i mean there are so many good musician even younger than me. and there's this feeling in me that says that i'll never be able to reach their standard or even a reasonable standard.
i think i became sick because of too much aircon. seriously if anyone of you think about it, we spend most of our time in air-conditioned environment. oh wells for me that is. and the aircon in my music studio is so freezing cold and i've no way of adjusting it. the thickest sweater doesn't work. trust me.
and right now, i freezing as if i'm in a freezer and my nose is probably blocked my some unknown thing. i have to try to sleep. boo, drowy mecidine don't have effect on me. don't even talk about sleeping pills.
lee needed you at 21.5.05
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Friday, May 20, 2005
i'm down with a bad sore throat and cough. and a stupid headache that keeps coming on and off. i so do not want to go to work today but i'll need an mc.and to see a doctor for it when i can just drown myself in panadols and lozenges is simply a waste of my money.sigh.
i watched starwars yesterday and i think the movie is just great! for those who haven't catch it, quick go watch it.
boohooo. bad mood.
lee needed you at 20.5.05
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005
i'm quite curious about the word: care. i don't seem to understand this four letter word fully.
when someone says he cares for a person, be it a friend, sibling or relative, what exactly does that person mean. and when a boy cares for his girlfriend, what does he mean this time? to many people, it may mean many things. however, the thing most puzzling is when friends say they care for one other.
oh wait. do they actually care for others around them. so that boils down again to what care actually means. we are so busy sometimes that lip-service just seem to be the best way out. or is it. sometimes we should actually stop and check ourselves to see whether we do really care for that person from our heart.
and of course, i'm not saying that people out there do not care for each other. i'm sure we do care for a few particular groups of people we have in mind. however many friends we may have, in the end it just boils down to just this few. those few people we are reminded daily of.
and that's why i don't miss yj. i just miss the few good friends i made in there. and when i have the chance to go aboard, i won't miss singapore. i would just miss a few particular group of friends and my family.
lee needed you at 17.5.05
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Monday, May 16, 2005
FELICIA |
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F |
is for |
Flamboyant |
E |
is for |
Extraordinary |
L |
is for |
Luscious |
I |
is for |
Innocent |
C |
is for |
Crazy |
I |
is for |
Industrious |
A |
is for |
Articulate |
lee needed you at 16.5.05
Your Birthdate: August 21 |
Being born on the 21st day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life.
The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental.
There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude.
You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression.
Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing.
You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.
You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters.
Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about.
You are affectionate and loving, but very sensitive.
You are subject to rapid ups and downs. |
lee needed you at 16.5.05
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Friday, May 13, 2005
its so interesting when you blog-read. and being the busybody me, i just love to find out what's happening in other people's life. ok blame all my free time on students who refused who come for lessons because of the impending or on-going exams.
on a lighter note, i had quite a good week. i cleared up some misunderstandings, had nice conversations or meetings with people i love, repaired old friendships and made new ones. i had a really relaxing week in a sense. oh wells, that's what not being a student is like. town for the first time was rather quiet on an afternoon.
and goodness, i walked into esplanade library and it was filled with students studying. and it brought back memories. i saw a student assuming she's a music student studying music history. a student trying to work out some maths problems. and other people seemingly to be mugging.
haha. there goes my point. human can never be contented. we always want the best of both worlds.
lee needed you at 13.5.05
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005
the violin lesson.
it felt so weird heading over to cristofori as a student. oh wells. teacher has special privilege. haha. no need to pay registration fee and sign up for some funny student card. just pay for your lessons and of you go!
and maybe because i'm a teacher. i had a special apology letter from one of the counter staff because he overcharged me for my violin. instead of the 10% discount i should get, he gave me only 1%. yupp. the apology letter was really funny.
and omg, the teacher was really cute. haha i spent half the time looking at him. i should have taught there on saturdays instead. and oh mine, he kept touching my fingers because i just couldn't hold my bow right. and at some point of time, i think i blushed! omg. so embarrassing. and he was standing so freaking near me. omg. i think i'm a little crazy.
anyway before i left, he said: well, next time when i want to learn the piano i know who to look for. and i smiled. oh wells. haha i'll be waiting.
oh wells again. kind of out of point. but maybe because i'm boy-deprived or whatever you call it that i've been gushing over it since last saturday.
and anyway i'm such a idiot teacher because i forgot that a student of mine went for his resevice even though he told me like quite a few times. and i had msged him for three times and called him twice because he didn't turned up today.
lee needed you at 10.5.05
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Thursday, May 05, 2005
LOOK at the date today. rather cool. 050505. haha. interesting.
horrible weather today. all it did was rain and rain. and i don't really like rainy days. i'm stucked at home today.
and the more i think of it. the more i think i've made the wrong choice. or rather a too hurried-cum-undecisive choice. i hope its only pms. then i know its just temporary.
lee needed you at 5.5.05
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Monday, May 02, 2005
is just seems fast. haha haven't been blogging much. so sorry. i'm busy. and i love today, its the public holiday which means i have NO work. seriously, i've never treasured a break so much in the past but now that there is one, i don't know what to do. serious.
i woke up early today. oh wells if 10am is considered early to you. beacause my air-con was switched off and the weather is like so freaking hot even in the morning and so i can't SLEEP. i seriously need a lot of sleep, and that's why i''m always tired. shessh, so tired that i'm talking crap now.
the surface. i guess most people just look on the surface of things. i mean its not wrong, its hard for people to look beneath the surface and search real deep down. and if you so happen to do that, i guess its not easy to cope with whatever you discover. the surface is just really so swallow.
i guess most people think everything's pretty settled. well not quite. i don't know how to say it here or whether i should in the first place. i'm just kind of confused. and that's the best word i can think of to describe everything.
on the bright side of things, i met up with quite a few people this week. and i ate a lot too. oh wells, not that i'm proud of it because i'm just getting fat along with everything else.
and sometimes, its just nice that people do care for you even if you don't realise it.
lee needed you at 2.5.05
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