Friday, August 26, 2005
GOODNESS. THIS BLOG IS GOING DEAD.
not to worry all, what i did was that I just disappeared from planet earth, got lost in space and back here i am again.
Anyway, HAPRY BIRTHDAY to myself. haha i know its stupid wishing myself and my birthday had long been gone (told you all i got lost in space...)but thanks to everyone i had a splendid birthday. the best and most memorable one so far. Let me see. i got bullied by my friends at work. and i shall not go into that haha. then on saturday i met up with glen and he treated me lunch at this italina restaurant at paragon. then sunday was my actual birthday and at church they ATTEMPTED to make an ice-cream cake and they started singing happy birthday song and i was so embarrassed. i was like oh no now the whole church knows its my birthday today. haha like whatever. i had presents from many people too (thanks a lot for all of them. i didn't know how to say thanks to you all. your presents really brighten up my birtday and made me smile!) thanks to those who wished me happy birthday and like i said, you guys made my day. and at night i strolled down over for dinner with the girls. and goodness i really miss them! they are the best girlfriends anyone could have!
and then i THOUGHT it was over. boo my birthday is over just like this and besides birthdays only come once a year so why not celebrate it the most you can. monday was my performance in which i played like shit. had mempry lapse and all and halfway through the song i knew it was already like shit. anyway after performance class i was so ready to go out with michelle to esplanade and guess what. i got bullied again. my classmates dragged me to the lounge and before i could think clearly, i heard birthday song and saw a cake. i was like so my goodness they have been planning this along haha. ok blame my stressed-out mind. (anyway thanks again to you all. it was what made my birthday great. i love you all to pieces haha!it was really sweet and i appreciated it). i was so so stunned that i didn't know how to react and before my mind could think properly, i started saying so embarrassing! oh my goodness so embarrassing again and again. did many funny actions which samuel went to take down on his phone without me realising. hmpf.
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and i've decided. i've got enough. and i'm not going to play with fire anymore. i never did like the feeling and i think i just breakdown easily. like so easy that i just cannot contain my own emotions. and i think this world ain't fair isn't it. why am i always the victim of so many a thing and then i have to bear everything myself. and then perhaps maybe i don't know what he's going through now too.
learn to let go. i've learnt it.
lee needed you at 26.8.05
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Saturday, August 06, 2005
its kind of nice when people whom you thought don't really care about you pop you a message and in fact they really care about you. just that you dont realise. and i really appreciated it.
my mum's nagging nonstop whenever i'm at home. oh wells i don't get to spend a lot of time at home and she's always talking on and on and sometimes i dont really give a damn. i thought my dad used to be the one doing that but then it just seems otherwise now.
and this week just flew past. just like that and i hardly stop to breathe. my piano's like shit now or worse i don't know. and what about that 35 mins recital at the end of the year. oh my goodness oh wells i dont even think i can make it.
i had some really interesting conversations with people haha. soem made my day or week or whatever.
lee needed you at 6.8.05
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