Friday, September 29, 2006
i've been labelled as a 'slacker' by my teacher. i wouldnt, and dont dare to dispute it. welcome to the slacker's club then.
i dont want to talk about exams except that its pretty fine and okay. legally speking my exams end only today but illegally speaking, my exams ended yesterday at 6pm with two very huge challenging papers. i'm now awaiting for my recital exam next tuesday, which of course i have to, must, and need to continue burning the midnight oil. and of course after which this are the first few things i will do in this so-called order: 1.) cut and dye my hair in some funny ulu colour 2.) cycle around the whole of singapore and if no one is crazy enough to do it with me, then around east coast park 3.) buy a hell lot of make-up 4.) go to town and buy everything i fancy and lastly, sleep for a straight, peaceful and undisturbed eight hours.
please note. this is not due to the many deprived stuff that exams took away from me. stress and workload and everything started before that. and before everything else comes back, i'll have to do it.
As of now, i can just shut up and eat my pocky biscuits and continue with my analysis portfolio.
lee needed you at 29.9.06
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Wednesday, September 27, 2006
sometimes i dread it. good things never last. and bad things come all at one time.
oh nevermind, it hasn't been good. exam has been pretty ok, i'm quite contented just so long i dont have to spend money and my precious time resitting the papers, but on the other hand, i dont think i'll fail because i did study. from the tv, but now the piano. from the computer to the laptop or table or books. from many nice lunch breaks to quick hurried mugging times. from clubbing to late-nights cramping information and facts to my already exhausted brain. from waking up to mug and do work before the sun even rises. i accomplish all these in this few days. isn't it amazing how few days may seem like a few weeks, and how next week just seem so so far away.
and it felt like i havent been loved. enough. oh yes i've been so loved by schubert and his string quintet and harmony is going to be in my dreams tonight (if i managed to get a wink that is), but i still feel so lonely. and so vulnerable. which shouldnt be the case. and actually i should just better get back to studying if not i'll end up writing rubbish too.
lee needed you at 27.9.06
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Friday, September 22, 2006
i cooked dinner the other night. for me and my darling. although i so happen to overestimate the whole thing and ended up with lots of food in the end but its alright, his family will probbaly (and i hope) eat the rest up. and i made quite a good chef, and i'm sure he agrees. potato and fruit salad, and salmon pasta and because i didnt have time to make the desserts, i got bailey cheesecake. but alas, it was in my fridge and it was too tempting, i ate it up for breakfast and had to get cheesesticks. it was meant to be a surprise, but that silly boy actually asked me to meet to eat sakae sushi, and so i only could say- nonono. i made dinner la. shit, surprise!
wellwell. i think i''m getting fast. snacking away while working on my exams. wow.
and anyways, i'm quite dead for exams. i'm going to create a miracle this weekend. wish me luck. and i got papers EVERYDAY next week man. so till then, good luck to everyone out there.
lee needed you at 22.9.06
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Monday, September 18, 2006
i really hate being a girl, the reason being the monthly period. it makes me so moody, grumpy, and feeling like shit. and it makes me bloody insecure too.
so thank yourself for being a guy, because you do not want to know what girls go through. and it cant be controlled. everything that comes with it in a way is not what every girl wants.
and maybe that's why i had the sudden urge for cakes today, and the sudden urge to eat spicy food. maybe. and maybe that's why i had the sudden urge to throw in an addias shirt for my bf, and the ache in my heart from missing him, and the urge to spent time on our first month together.
lee needed you at 18.9.06
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006
nowadays i have been so so exhausted. i either fall asleep on my table or come home, glance at my bed, decide to take a short nap and wake up around two hours later usually around the wee hours. oh dear, i need more strength.
we just have had a concert last night. parents came down to watch and after that on the way home, kept gushing about the soloist, haha but not the pianist. and i think my brother is so "into" the famour soprano soloist cos he kept talking about hte beautiful sound she produced. and we stood on stage for a total of one hour. oh man, imagine our feets. i was smart enough not to wear heels. near the end when it was the turn for the soloist to sing, i was practically stoning away. but i think mozart's mass in c minor is really a very very nice work. it just so beautiful, and its music can really touch your heart like no other person could. everyone slept at the slow movement, but its really the nicest movement with all the dissonant hamonies and its meaning. we didnt get to catch the piano concerto, couldnt actually but i think it was fine.
that's all. i'm done and over with all the presentations. good grief. and talking about now, i feel like slpeeping again, though its not even 12 midnight. well. study feli(:
lee needed you at 13.9.06
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006
i've nothing to say except thaa i'm damn tired. and that i've just had the nicest conversation(:
i hope i'm allowed to whine here. SCHOOL's A BITCH. it is so shit. that's all i need to say. i go out of house early every morning and return home so late, i always almost stone in front of the tv and literally stone. so tired to do anything else already but ultimately i still have to. and besides all this, i still need to work (teach), and plus all the work, plus stress plus pressure. oh boy. and my teacher just told me the other lesson- that i used to be one of the best, but now i'm the slowest of the whole level.
so much for teacher's day. i gave my teacher a card that reads "world greatest teacher". he looked at it and said, well i think i should be the world patient teacher. well true, i can't even play a bloody etude properly. i dont think i can by exam time which is soso soon. anyway, on the brighter side, i received quite a lot of gifts too!
anyway it took me quite some time to realise it. but i really love him. not those kind that i have to spend every minute with him. those kind that can be felt in your heart. we dont get to spend a lot of time together, but its the quality rather than the quantity that counts isnt it? anyway they say absence makes the heart grow fonder and anyway, i just love doing really simple stuff with him. it just makes me so at ease and so comfortable with him around(:
alrights, sorry for the rantings. its all school, work and practice in my head as of the moment. oh no, someone please save me. i really really need my beauty sleep badly.
lee needed you at 6.9.06
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Sunday, September 03, 2006
hello.
i dont know why but i've nothing much to blog about though so much stuff has happened this week. all i know is that though i'm still quite a bit sick, i've been pigging out a lot.
oh dear. presentations and exams coming up soso soon.
lee needed you at 3.9.06
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